MAC = music, a carree
in other words music is going to be my carree hee or it could be mac and chesse take it anyway you want

Babe I don't think I can deal with you right now,
I can't deal with you and your shit,
So leave me be for a night or two,
So I can clear my head,
So I can sleep you off,
I can't stand you but I keep coming back,
I don't understand,
Why, why, why, why,
Is it that your always the one saying goodbye,
When it should be me throwing your sorry ass to the curb,
But no I'm the problem,
I'm the drug,
That you can't seem to quit,
But babe your bull shit is making me queasy,
And your lies are giving me a head ache,
So let me sleep you off,
So I can do this for another day,
Another day of "this is the last time" or "don't want to make this a habit",
I'm a habit now? Babe don't you see?
Your already additiced to me,
So when you say these stupid things,
I laugh at you,
And cry a little inside,
Cause it reminds me how addicted I am to you too,
Cause no matter how many times I wake up feeling sick,
Having such a bitter taste in my mouth,
And finding your note on my pillow saying "this was the last time",
Only to have you call me later saying we should do it again,
I always say sure and tell you how badly I want you too,
And then I have another night of sleeping you off,
Another day of feeling this way,
Your the worst kind of drug babe,
So leave me be for tonight,
I'll get my fix tomorrow,
And the day after that and the day after that,
But tonight I want to sleep you off,
Cause your love has such a nasty after taste,
And your touch leaves such a horrible burn.



k just bored and tired and this popped into my head.
hope everyones doing good, hugs and kisses
Moni

1) Full name?
Monica

2) Male/Female?
Female

3) Were you named after anyone?
ummm nobody really my mom found my name on a letter

4) Does your name mean anything?
umm in some random langue it means adviser

5) Nickname(s)?
Moni, Moni-bug, Darling, Hun, Ma'am

6) What do you think you look like?
matters on what mood i'm in right now i feel pretty good

7) Date of birth?
before you

8) Place of birth and current location?
........

9) Nationality?
American

10) Astrology sign?
Libra/Scorpio

11) Chinese astrology sign?
Ram

12) Religion?
non

13) What's your favorite smell?
the smell of spring and just before it rains

14) Political position?
humaniation and flip-flopper

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Orange juice

16) Hair + eye color?
red, dark blue

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
ummm no i look like me

18) What do you look like?
pretty damn sexy thank you very much

19) Any unusual talents?
remembering songs

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
righty tighy

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
straight

22) What do you do for a living?
i just live

23) What do you do for fun?
hang out with friends, hang outside, knit, draw

24) Materials to work with?
pencil paper

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
anything i can get my hands *___*

26) Have you met your grandparents?
yep

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
nope single baby

28) Crush?
no not really

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
ummm i really wouldn't date a celeb celpt the really unknown cute ones

30) Current worries?
geting papers done

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s)?
everyone! <3

34) Do you burn or tan?
xD i burn then i tan

35) Ever break a bone?
nope

36) What is your favorite cereal?
smart start

37) Person you cry with?
i really don't cry

38) Any sisters?
nope nope

39) Any brothers?
yep! two annoyng lovable brothers

40) Any pets?
three cats

41) An illness?
yep yep

42) A pager?
...pfffft no

43) A personal phone line?
nope

44) A cell phone?
yep I <3 it

45) A visible birthmark?
yep

46) A pool or hot tub?
niether i have a pond

47) A car?
nope nor do i want one

48) Personality?
crazy and playful, i change my personality if i'm around guys or girls and i have a pretty good sense of humor though i laugh when i get nervous

49) Driving?
not yet

50) Your clothing style?
umm just me i guess, it matches

51) Room?
my own

52) What’s missing?
the sun (its night out D

53) School?
it has it days of total shitness but mostly its all good

54) Bed?
good warm place

55) Relationship with your parents?
very very good not perfect but what relationship is?

56) Do you believe in yourself?
i try but i can be really really hard on my self somtimes

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?
not perticularly

58) Consider yourself a good listener?
sure if people want to talk i'll listen

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?
sure! i want to go to a good college and become a shrink

60) Get along with your parents?
yep yep! their very open with me and always give it to me straight and ask my opioion

61) Save your e-mail conversations?
don't really e-mail

62) Pray?
no

63) Believe in reincarnation?
hmm never really thought about it

64) Brush your teeth twice a day?
ummm sure...

65) Like to talk on the phone?
matters on who it is

66) Like to eat?
matters on the food

67) Like to exercise?
matters on what it is

68) Like to watch sports?
xD matters on what sport

69) Sing in the car?
hellz yeah!

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?
people i know, mostly guys and its usally really random and has some very deep metaphor xD

71) Dream in color?
most if the time

72) Do you have nightmares?
umm yeah

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal?
hee yep! a stuffed penigun

74) What's right next to you?
a paper for a bio project

75) What's on your favorite mug?
nothin its white

76) What's on your mouse pad?
the chinese symbol for love

77) Your favorite flavor of gum?
berry

78) Your brand of deodorant?
degree

79) Your dream honeymoon spot?
somewhere with lots of sun and beaches

80) Your dream husband/wife?
haven't met him yet

81) What's hiding in your closet?
you

82) Under your bed?
the boggy man <

83) The name of one of your closest/best friends?
um um um all my friends are really close to me!! *runs away*

84) Your bad time of the day?
6

85) Your worst fear(s)?
people leaving or geting angry with me

86) What's the weather like?
rainy

87) Your favorite time of year?
all days that are sunny really

88) Your favorite holiday?
hmm any time i get to spend with my family

89) A material weakness?
sorta i like nice stuff

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like?
umm xD i eat really normal stuff

91) At the top of your "to do list"?
get papers dine

92) The hardest thing about growing up?
learning that you can't have finger puppet shows during math xD

93) A pet peeve?


94) Your scariest moment?
whenever one of my family members is hurt

95) Your attitude about love?
its there, its beautiful and i hope to have it someday

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done?
hee can't think of it right now let me get back to you

97) The worst feeling in the world?
when you lie to someone who totally trusts you to death

98) The best feeling in the world?
the sun on your face

99) Who sent this to you?
hee i kind stole it :3

100) 5 people to send this test too?
who ever wants it!

Three favorite video game characters:
1. link (o god i feel like a nerd)
2. all the ally-side kick characters (NOT THE CHICKS)
3.ummm Ice climbers

Three nicks you use:
1. Moni
2. Moni-bug
3. Ma'am

Two true facts and a lie:
1. I don't cry easily
2. I like to make people smile
3. I kick puppies

Three things essential in your daily schedule:
1. my friends <3
2. food
3. sun

Three things you're wearing:
1. Black shirt
2. comfy silky pajama bottoms
3. ummm underwear?...

Three favorite bands: (not in order!)
1. The Beatles
2. Cartel
3. The Hush Sound

Three favorite songs: (ummm i really don't have a fav so songs i like right now...)
1. Pumpkin Song
2. Love You Much Better/The Boys too Refined
3. Say Anything (Else)

Three things you search for in a relationship:
1. ability to start a conversation
2. humor
3. lack of personal bubble

Three things you look for in a girlfriend / boyfriend:
1. dose what i say when i say it
2. humor
3. physical and intectuall attraction

Three physical features you look for in a girlfriend / boyfriend:
1. Nice big hands
2. umm not to skinky but not to big either
3. Nice smile

Three favorite hobbies:
1. Playing with my boys (brothers)
2. Hanging with my friends
3. Singing

Three careers you've think you would/would have study:
1. Phyc's
2. Child care
3. Bio

Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. somewhere sunny
2. somewhere with skiing
3. somewhere with a beach/ ocean

Three things you wanna do before you die:
1. have sex
2. have kids
3. go make something out of myself ^__^

XD i love the fact i can do a totally serious jouranal.. then do one thats totally random pfft

35/100
THE LIST:
1. Life
2. Love
3. Light-[link]
4. Dark-[link]
5. Play
6. Break Away-[link]
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Famous
10. Emotion
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Fear
14. Smile-[link]
15. Silence
16. Wild
17. Morning
18. Rainbow- [link]
19. Gray-[link]
20. Pet-[link]
21. Grow
22. Mother Nature-[link]
23. Cat
24. World
25. Trouble Lurking-[link]
26. Tears-[link]
27. Cigarette-[link]
28. Man
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers-[link]
32. Night-[link]
33. Pray
34. Stars-[link]
35. Wings-[link]
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes-[link]
38. Abandoned-[link]
39. Dreams
40. Rated-[link]
41. Hug
42. Wrong-[link]
43. Right
44. Ice Cream
45. Mother
46. Family-[link]
47. Creation
48. Childhood-[link]
49. Stripes
50. Mad-[link]
51. School
52. Deep in Thought-[link]
53. Keeping a Secret-[link]
54. Tower
55. Freedom
56. Reality
57. Sacrifice
58. Purple
59. Blue
60. Rejection -[link]
61. Fairy Tale-[link]
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. West
65. East
66. Vulnerable
67. Snow
68. Hero-[link]
69. Annoyance
70. Numbers
71. Obsession
72. Wind-[link]
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?-[link]
75. Mirror-[link]
76. Forever
77. Test-[link]
78. Warm
79. Starvation-[link]
80. Words-[link]
81. Heart
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Relationship-[link]
84. Cold
85. Hope
86. Seeing Red-[link]
87. Food
88. Space
89. Falling
90. Britian
91. Ireland
92. All That I Have
93. Japan
94. America
95. Teenager
96. Adulthood
97. Kimono
98. Puzzle
99. Tree
100. Ka Ching

don't you dare die on me,
my little love, my favorite boy,
don't you dare leave me,
or your mother or your sister, please don't be like your bother,
think of all the tears we shed, and all the time we spent morning and sobbing over love gone and died,
think of all the flowers sent, all the boxs of cards and food and word of the ill news,
tell me lies, tell you never ment what you said, tell me things won't be bad again,
like they did before when the phone wouldn't stop ringing,
and we all heard such a horrible thing,
please they love you, i love you, we all love you,
screw everything before, all the horrible things before,
please listen to your mother forget about your farther,
things will get better they always do,
please don't go before they do,
don't you dare die on me,
i'll never forgive you if you do.



A person once told me that suicide is a choice.
If someones want to die let them
all i could think was "have you lost your mind?"


35/100
THE LIST:
1. Life
2. Love
3. Light-[link]
4. Dark-[link]
5. Play
6. Break Away-[link]
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Famous
10. Emotion
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Fear
14. Smile-[link]
15. Silence
16. Wild
17. Morning
18. Rainbow- [link]
19. Gray-[link]
20. Pet-[link]
21. Grow
22. Mother Nature-[link]
23. Cat
24. World
25. Trouble Lurking-[link]
26. Tears-[link]
27. Cigarette-[link]
28. Man
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers-[link]
32. Night-[link]
33. Pray
34. Stars-[link]
35. Wings-[link]
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes-[link]
38. Abandoned-[link]
39. Dreams
40. Rated-[link]
41. Hug
42. Wrong-[link]
43. Right
44. Ice Cream
45. Mother
46. Family-[link]
47. Creation
48. Childhood-[link]
49. Stripes
50. Mad-[link]
51. School
52. Deep in Thought-[link]
53. Keeping a Secret-[link]
54. Tower
55. Freedom
56. Reality
57. Sacrifice
58. Purple
59. Blue
60. Rejection -[link]
61. Fairy Tale-[link]
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. West
65. East
66. Vulnerable
67. Snow
68. Hero-[link]
69. Annoyance
70. Numbers
71. Obsession
72. Wind-[link]
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?-[link]
75. Mirror-[link]
76. Forever
77. Test-[link]
78. Warm
79. Starvation-[link]
80. Words-[link]
81. Heart
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Relationship-[link]
84. Cold
85. Hope
86. Seeing Red-[link]
87. Food
88. Space
89. Falling
90. Britian
91. Ireland
92. All That I Have
93. Japan
94. America
95. Teenager
96. Adulthood
97. Kimono
98. Puzzle
99. Tree
100. Ka Ching